Monday, November 15, 2010

I found out something in the last couple of days that surprised me. After you get to middle age, your kids start telling YOU what to do. At least my ex-wife's kids do. They told her that she had to choose between seeing me or seeing them and the grandkids. What a load of crap! Isn't blackmail illegal? What about her decisions about her life? What gives a child the right to tell his or her parents what she can or cannot do? NOTHING!! I know her 2 kids don't like me but it never kept them from accepting help whenever it was needed. I guess the thought of her inheritance not being split with them was too much. Well, they can go to hell as far as I am concerned. I don't need or want anything from any of them. I have always made my own way, nobody gives me anything. And that's the way I like it. Does it CHAP MY ASS? No, not really, it's just kinda sad if you thing about it.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

The question of "is life fair?" has been answered. No! It is not fair, especially if you are are a man in a divorce case. I try to be fair and it gets slammed back into my face. "Ex Parte Order of Protection". Latin for "he's a really big asshole and we need to keep him on a short leash". Because I own a few knives and a couple of guns is why she got the order. Hell, she could have used them on me, since she had more access than I did. OK, it's over! I understand! You hate the ground I walk on! Let's just get it over and done. I do have to keep on living, or do you even care? It's starting to look like a big grab it all and run deal. There ain't much left to grab. Take what is yours and let me live out my life for however long or short that may be. Let's get to mediation and split the loot, the furniture, the whatever. But guess what.......income taxes are soob=n due and you owe half. Property taxes are due.....and you owe half. You have a 401k and I get half. Let's put the house up for sale since it isn't worth what we owe. I'll stay here, make the paynments, and maybe in 10 years or so, we can sell it and split the proceeds. Huh, sounds like you didn't do your homework, just hired a sleazebag lawyer and ran. I may get surprised but the shoe may drop to my side instead. Don't THAT just CHAP YOUR ASS?

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Well it's just like I thought. No reconciliation, no chance, no how! We went to court Monday March 1st to legitimatize the Ex Parte Order of Protection (how do you like my Latin?). No contact at all!! Or it's off to jail with you! What a crock of shit! The sad part is her dad died Friday night also. He had been sick for a long while and just suddenly went, poof! I have kinda figured out that Deb knew her dad didn't have too much longer and she wanted to protect her financial windfall in the form of a life insurance policy. I think she was afraid that she would lose it to our bankruptcy. If that is the case, she should have consulted a lawyer about it and would have found out that it would not have been touched. Or maybe she just decided to use it as a parting shot at me. Either way, when we go to mediation, I am gonna ask for 40% of it. We were together a total of 19 years, I feel I deserve something for my time, money, effort and humiliation. Or am I just being a really big turd? Anyway, the whole thing is a tragedy and really kinda CHAPS MY DIVORCED ASS!!

Friday, February 12, 2010

I thought I had lived thru the worst days I was gonna have to live thru but today tops them all. I worked hard all day, tried to call home to check on the wife since it was snowing pretty hard. No answer-on home or cell phone. Was slightly perturbed and worried, so came home about 3:30. No car in the driveway and a goodbye note on the kitchen cabinet door. Things have been edgy since our New Year's Eve blow up( a slightly bigger than normal argument) but I have been trying to be the husband I should be since that time. I guess I am a bigger asshole than even I thought. I can tell it's for good because she left our pets here and other things. She took some things that I guess she needed to furnish wherever she is. She will most likely come back to get clothes and other stuff when I have to go to work. It would be hard to sit here and watch her move out and maybe hard for her to see me cry. She did take my little Josie Mae(chihuahua) and BoBo(my damned cat) but left Goldie, Jasper, Maxx, Teejay,Inman and Kaycee. (3 cats and 3 dogs). I guess they will go to the animal shelter when I have to let the house go because I can't keep them in an apartment. I'm still numb. After 15 years of marriage and 2 more years before that, I thought we would be together until the end. This is like a country song that has no ending. I guess I will have to figure out if the sun will come up tomorrow, if I have to keep breathing and eating, or work on an alternative ending. Life sucks, in case I haven't made myself clear. If it were warm weather, I would burn it all and ride off into the sunset on the motorcycle. I guess I'm just too damned old. Maybe there is no tomorrow, maybe I don't have to breathe. Maybe I'll get lucky and when I go to bed alone tonight, the world will just stop turning for me. Damm, I'm just too tired for all of this.